Tuesday, January 26, 2010
c0mments!
I'm nothing but an asshole,
Most of the people wan me to be myself,
But after thinking thoroughly i think to be the opposite of what they want,
Being what they want me to be is giving them a chance to criticize me,
I will not let them seize the chance to criticize me,
Whats the point, No matter what i do,
I just feel that i am being played around,
tricking myself into believing i was happy,
Tricking myself to just smile in front of everyone to not let them see how i truly feel,
people may be thinking that i am crapping because only a few have seen how i really feel,
People whom i really cares about me have actually seen me feeling down,
How i long for a real laugh,How i long to really smile instead of show a fake smile,
Its been a long time since i really felt happy,
After going through last year, i really feel like going back to being a child,
A child that has no worries, that just plays until he's tired,
A child who dont have to study, a child that do not need to care about appearance,
A kid that doesn't have to pay for his own meals,
A kid that can just sleep for how long he wants and watch tv,
A Kid that doesn't know what love is,
a kid that really don know how love hurts,
Just a little kid.
How sometimes i may feel envious seeing how others are happy being together,
how sometimes i feel sad to know that i'm always being criticize,
How useless,careless i am.
Why do i fall in love with someone i cant be with?
Why should i even bother to see if others feel sad,
Why do i bother even comforting them when i know they will just forget about it when they are happy again, How i treat others and how others treat me are totally different,
Maybe helping someone doesn't need anything in return but then,
Being help is something i usually dont get.
I can't bear to see anyone being sad but others can bear to see me being sad.
What do they do? talk to others and pretend to not see me or just keep quiet.
Friends, i dont really think i have friends,
Friends scold u like a parent,
irritates u like a sister,
cares for u like a lover,
but none of my friends are like that.
My friends are just hi-bye people, who usually do not care about my existence,
My existence is nothing more than a mistake that was write into the book of existence.
My life is a mistake my existence itself is a mistake.
i should just disappear into thin air.
But i cant if i was able to control my own life, How great will it be.
Sighs, All well doesnt end well for me
I Played @
11:13 PM
Monday, January 25, 2010
c0mments!
After reading this post please tag it thanks.
The sec 3 life i am having isn't turning out the way i expected,
Alot of things happening, i am confuse,
i feel like just screaming, the me here and the me in real life are two completely different person,
when im here i usually write out what i really feel,
And in real life just smile to everyone to hide my emotions,
A laugh, a smile is able to fool everyone and anyone.
But myself, i cant fool myself,
im patient enough to wait, im dumb enough to not give up,
Yet i may be a
F-ing,son of a...,mother f-er,bastard, an immature a-hole,
That doesn't mean i don have a mature side of me,
the mature side of me only shows when i'm talking to someone seriously,
usually when im around everyone i just want to make a fool out of myself to see smiles from everyone, smiles from others tells me that immature me can make others happy,
But being immature also lets other people criticize me more,
my immaturity makes others happy and also gives others a chance to criticize me,
Let me say something,
When i'm acting immature, they will laugh. But time and time again when they criticize me,
Calling me a small boy,children, kid,
They'll forget that the so called"small boy,child,kid" was the person who made them smile,
Was the person that made them laugh, and cheer them up when they were down,
Always lending them my ears to listen to their troubles, to comfort them whenever needed.
But time and time again they will criticize me for making them happy,
For making them smile, all my efforts were wasted because,
They didnt think on how i comforted them, how i make them laugh,
I come be mature, but the mature me makes everyone think that im emoing,
makes everyone think that im sad, Because being the mature me means,
not much of talking, listening to music and sleeping.
If u have a choice to choose whether u wan a
Immature kid that cares about everyone or a mature kid that cares about no one,
I'll let u choose the me u guys want. Reply in my tagbox which damien u really want,
Think carefully before u tag because i may become the one u dont like.
I Played @
8:08 PM
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
c0mments!
Well lets just say school reopening is a bad thing,
hair got caught,got photographed by chua ong cause i tuck out,
Sigh, alot of bull shits happen. But yeah its good to be back with friends,
Nothing much really change other than long pants,
Well i got a new friend, Jeremy. A friend's younger brother,
Hah and soon one of us. Well School Really is a no to me n jordon cause it sucks.
But than new friends,new future, and other shit.
Just hope i wont retain, Hah And anyway.
Happy birthday to,
Daphne Low CUMMING(Kar Min)
Well huh 15 le please la mature a bit la hor, and stop talking so loudly.
Hah well nothing else left but
I have one thing to say,
FUCK U PUSSIES:)
I Played @
9:16 PM
