Feel that no one can understand me c0mments! Haiz...I totally shag..haiz no one understand me...no one understand how i try to put up a strong front while how left out i feel...i sometimes really juz feel like dying...the only way i can try to make myself happy is to quarrel is beat people to get beaten?haiz..i feel that i being guailan is not my attitude its juz my only way to entertain myself?i really feel left out...i feel like talking to someone..trustful?wont laugh at me?someone who will lend me a listening ear??how?i feel that im stupid i feel that im childish..i feel like changing but..childishness is a way to make me less upset? i nid someone to help me...im starting to feel lost..starting to wonder who is the one that i can tok to...

a nuisance am i? an annoying arrogant bastard qian da little kid?i feel like crying i feel like toking to someone i can trust some one that can comfort me some one to take care of me...haiz...i nid someone to tok to..someone help me...how i wish to breakdown right in front of my frendz sometimes...

c0mments! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME N BETTY,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME N BETTY ,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME N BETTY..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!!:)

HAHAS...APPARENTLY..THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE WHO REMEMBERED THAT TODAY IS MY BDAY..HAHAS...IM GONNA ANNOUNCE THE FIRST
FEW PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY SAID HAPPY BDAY TO ME FIRST..

c0mments! today breakfast ate roti prata at macpherson lane..wif smallbear,sengyang,alex...they came my house after that use comp till 5 went to 64...7 go eat wif smallbear,sengyang,sengtiong,bernard...than watch drag me to hell...lols not as scarey as i expected...

When she's not around..i want to tell her alot of things..but when she's beside me..im speechless...im confused..nid someone to tok to.

c0mments! Today woke up at 11plus...than play dota at 12 till 12.30...than went out wif sengyang ahbee n jordon..hahas watched transformers...it was cool...hahas...than came back to 64 at around 8plus went to macpherson lane wif sengyang to eat prata for dinner..went gk house slack until now than come up glad i went out wif them hahas..LOLS

i feel useless..i dunno wad to say..i dunno how to help....im confused...sad?emo...haiz..juz becoz of...i really felt useless..



hahas...tis is the 2nd part of my post..the post on top was for yesterday 24th june..ok today morning went to eat lambee wif 64 de people...than go home all of them come up 5 plus jeremy n me pei smallbear go singpost than ate longjohn silver for dinner..hahas...
sad?moody?i dunno ..im not as optimistic as i used to be..haiz..time change..everyone change..im alone...forgotten..forsaken..

c0mments! LOLS..saw this quiz..say i muz do jiu do lorh :)
All of the 14 people must do this quiz, unless he/she dosen't have a blog or have already done this quiz. write the names of the 14 people you could think of the top of your head, then answer the questions .
1. Alex
2. Kizuko
3. Junyong
4. Joanne
5. JunDong
6. Jorean
7. Elain
8. JunJie
9. Daphne
10. Rachel
11. Joohoe
12. KuanYao
13. Fathu
14. Amirul
1. How did you get to meet 7? Destiny?Fate? i met her in secondary school..she's my mei
2. What would you do if you and 13 have not met? i would have lost a good n funny brother
3. What would you do if 1 and 12 date? 1 n 12 are both boys..they're not gay so i dun know
4. Have you seen 14 cry? Nope..hahas..
5. Would 4 and 11 be a good couple? Nope..hahas one too tall n one short...not pei..
6. Do you think 11 is attractive? Erm...As a Kor yes duh!!im not gay...zzz -_-||
7. What's 2's favourite colour? lols im not sure never asked her b4..
8.When was the last time you talked to 9? Real life last day of school..in the comp..forgot le..
9. What language does 8 speak ? English n chinese to me :)
10. Who is 13 going out with? No one
11. What grade is 12 in? Sec 3
12. Would you ever date 10? Dont know..i follow my heart not a quiz :)
13. Whats the best thing about 13? He's my brother in my class :) a good n funny brother of coz..
14. What's the best thing about 8? That he is a good frend..
15. Have you ever kissed 5? NO WAY!! IM NOT GAY!!LOLS WHO WANNA KISS HIM?!!WTF!?
16. What was the best memory you have with 7 ? Erm..not sure..alot since we used to haf fun tgt
17. When's the last time you are going to see 6? how i know? let fate decide :)
18. How is 12 and 14 different? one tall one short..one super funny one funny..one chinese one malay..
19. Is 6 Pretty? okok :)
20. How did you meet 5? in school..hahas
21. Is 1 your best friend? yup..:) n best brother too..
22. Have you seen 4 on the last time? dun understand..hahas..i tink so..dun really get tis question..
23. Do you hate 12? no way..hahas.
24. Have you seen 4 on the last month? yeah..duh..
25. When was the last time you talk to 3? On june 15 on the phone..
26. Have you been to 5's house? nope..
27. When's the last time you gonna see 10? how i know..zz..
28. Are you close to 13? Duh??!! My brother in class!
29. Have you been to a movie with 4 before? yup..10 promises to my dog after sec 1's napfa
30. Have you gotten into trouble with 8? like duh...quarrel..
31. Would you give 2 a hug? why not?i would..
32. When have you ever lied to 3? Nope..
33. Is 1 good in socializing? yup..can say so
34. Do you know secrets about 9? not sure..dun really know..
35. Describe the relationship between 12 and 14. Strangers...
36. Best thing about your friendship with 9? that she's my mei..
37. What's the worst thing about 6? thats she is too tall..taller than me xP
38. Have you ever had a crush on 12? Nope..im not gay..
39. Does 14 have a girlfriend or boyfriend? now nope..
40. Have you ever want to punch 1's face? no...
41. Has 2 met your mom? yeah...
42. How do you get to meet 3? in primary schools..brothers??close like hell?
43. Did you ever physically hurt 3? yeah..play play de larh duh...
44. Do you live close to 7? no
45. What's 8 Favourite food? i dunno leh..
46. What kind of car does 2 have? nope..she's too young
47. If you give 14 $100 what will he/she spend it on? i dunno i not him :)
END OF QUIZ HAHAS..IF U NOTICED I indicated everyone's name in my clique :)

Hahas...ok quite happy that i managed to see n talk to small bear coz like dunno how long than see her..hahas...for some reasons...i managed to had a long chat at her house...hahas...hope she cheers up soon...played dota....watch show..today...starting to watch zhong ji san guo...my blog song is one of zhong ji san guo de songs..its nice...i like the song...LOLS.....okokok...

it didnt fade for some reasons...glad that it didnt...For some reasons...i still cant forget her...wishing that i could meet her more

c0mments! IN MY FKING LIFE I REGRET HAVING ONE FKED UP DOG BROTHER CALLED DARYL CHONG KAI KIAT..KNN EVERYTHING ONE KPKB ..LJ ... DUNNO WHY GOT TIS KIND OF FKING GOD DAMN BROTHER!!CCB... ASK ME GO EAT SHIT LARH...LJ.. I DO THING HE KP I DONT DO TING HE KP..HELP HIM DO THING OSO KP DUN HELP OSO KP.. EVERYTHING KPKB? I NOT HIS FREAKING PUNCHING BAG OR WAD? LJ.... CCB ONE DAY I REALLY PISS OFF I CONFIRM USE CHOPPER CHOP HIM DE..CCB I CHOP HIM UNTIL MY MUM DUN RECOGINISE HIM..CCB FKED UP WIF TIS KIND OF FKING DOGS..CCB .... DUNNO Y I GET TIS KIND OF FKED UP BROTHER.. IF CAN I ASK MY MUM DUN GIVE BIRTH TO TIS KIND OF FKING BROTHER...CCB EVERYTHING ONI IS KPKPKPKPKPPKKPKPPKKPKP.
CCB... I SIBEI FKED UP WIF TIS KIND OF DOGS..CCB!@#!@#!@#!@%^#*$^#@!&*()!@$


i fking hate daryl chong kai kiat wish he get out of my fked up life..make my life more peaceful!! knn dog!!

c0mments! hahas im gonna update liao..yesterday at home dota..than went down joohoe house at 5..everyone came when to take bus reach chinatown de ten dollar club at 7...sing karoke from 7 to 12..drinks free flow we keep drink keep go toilet hahas..super fun at karoke..linlin n bakchormee come late coz they lost tiao dunno how to come..hahas...people who went...Damien,Daryl,Jootong,Joohoe,Kuanyao,Ahbee,Ben,Tianhong,patrick,joey,jeremy,naige,tingfei,linlin and bakchormee(jiemin)...jeremy sing song keep make everyone laugh...hahas super super funny sia him..super fun...went to macpherson lane ate prata...reach home around 3 plus...than slept till today...wake up go sengkang cc for npcc sana course..after sana course go eat kfc alone...than came to my cousin house at sengkang now currently at sengkang there...so sianz..no dota i at here zhuo bo hahas!!Ending here..

starting to lose the close ones in school...starting to feel further apart from them..sianz..

c0mments! I feel that im forgetting my frendz..im forgetting..the clique..i feel sad abt it but nevertheless nth can be change..i cant stop them from doing wad they wan..apparently..in their lifes i not even a frend :) hahas?joke?funny?lols..i dunno to juz feel like laughing at myself knowing that im a failure in life...at least having 64 having chuplao de frendz cheers me up...dun haf any comments at all..dunno why i even try dunno why i even bother..
Happy Birthday to jordon tan hong ming!!!!happy bday bro..13yrs old liao..be more mature..hahas..lols..dun say i nv wish u happy bday hor..i at tampines mall shout out happy birthday to jordon liao..hahas.


lols..ok today was fun...went out wif ahbee,tingfei,jordon,kengsoon...today was jordon birthday...hahas..its been a long time since i went out wif brothers...ok...went to cinema buy tickets for terminator salvation...that movie was nice..sound effects too loud..when they tok not so clear but it was nice..i rate it 4/5 hahas..went to play arcade..play basketball awhile won jordon for two rounds..than play stackers...tmd..so fking hard to win the major prize..the major prize got delay de..nvm..ate longjohnsliver..i ring the bell like siao gina..than alot of people stare at me..hahas...after that went back 64...slack awhile jiu go home liao...hahas..today quite fun..at least i went out once during the june holidays...

thinking why i start to lose faith in the clique..tinking why i keep on trying when only im trying..dunno why i try so hard to keep the clique together but no one even gives a single care abt me...haiz...tired n sianz of keep trying...starting to get ignored by almoz everyone in the clique..feel like a failure..as a frend,as a kor,as a normal person...dun feel like trying...feel like giving up alrdy...sicked n tired..

c0mments! haiz..no mood to post..juz came back from camp..on 10 june...3 days 2 night camp...at st john island..quite fun super tiring...from 8-10june..i feel so shag lorh..machiam got freedom no frendz..got freedom for wad??lifes really sux...i feel like dying..haiz...i feel that im starting to lose my frendz...im not close to them like b4...they all oni care abt their outside frendz..our clique is gone alrdy...no more fun times..no more laughing like retards no more having fun..no more enjoyable memories..all of that is fading...how i wish we can go back in time to be like last time..always going to eat sushi...watch movie..play games...play arcade...that really was the bomb....go toys'r'us take toys whack each other...like retards...hahas..everyone slacking laughing....haiz....now everyone making empty promises...always saying..i promise next time will go out..than in the end..all dun even care...its juz a heck care of this fked up shit thing..all say its possible to go back..but how?im trying but u guys are not trying...keep saying sorry..say next time will go ..saying i promise next time will go...in the end...its all juz a big fat lie...an empty promise...when u guys promise make sure u do promise..coz promise is a very big word...it has a very big meaning..dun make empty promises making me feel angry..making me waste my time go find every detail n every time to make tis outing..in the end..no one turns up...if stead is important juz say...if i am not important juz say...but if the clique is not important..u can juz fk off n dun be wif us...i hate it when u guys make empty promises..if u feel tat our clique is really not important that we are juz a spare frendz for u to use in school..fk off n dun be in this clique dun be wif us...dun say good things n dun make promises when u dun mean them...when u are really ready to go out wif us than u say..im sick n tired of chasing u guys to go out on an outing..im not gonna care anymore...tink abt tis carefully n than come n tok to me..CLIQUES ARE IMPORTANT!dun say u wanna be in tis clique unless u mean it...

im sick n tired of chasing..im gonna forget..im not gonna forgive..im giving up on everyone...im reffering to everyone in the clique..

c0mments! its been 8 days since the start of the school holidays...everything is boring everyone doing their own tings..every one having fun...21 more days to the big day...i bet hardly anyone will know wad day is tat..im not important...anyways...i feel lonely n emo..but i dun show my feelings in front of my frendz..keep joking as if im happy but im not...feel like dying..Alone,emo,sianz,shag 4 words to describe me..
Longing for a chance to prove that someone wrong...haiz...i hate who i am..i hate wad i've become...i wish i can juz go back to when i was juz a small kid..having the time of my life..not having any troubles...enjoying those times...haiz...
Im waiting for my chance to come..waiting for the golden moment to grab the chance but apparently im juz not good enuff...the sad n shag feelings i get when the tot of not being gd enuff comes to my mind..
i fking hate being known as a small boy...haiz...dun like knowing that im childish...

c0mments! Shag sia...now i notice is not i dun wan go out is they dun wan go out lorh..zz...haiz..im not gonna give a fk shit anymore....trying my best to be together wif u all n wad fk shit kind of ans i get...dunno,cannot,see how(in the end cannot)..zzz..than y the fk shud i care...Lame larh...haiz..now than i know...my frendz...dun really care much abt me at all..they oni care abt.. their own lifes...hahas...cool rite??getting tis kind of frendz..when they organise outing..i go...if i cannot go..people like will dulan..than i jio them leh...cannot go de...will hahas..than say sorry...sorry sorry sorry..u guys use tis word so easily...zz...fk tis man...im feel like venting my anger on something or someone..Frendz are hard to find easy to lose...apparently...my frendz...dun tink me as a good or close frend...tis like a fking god damn shit...im like...juz...dunno wad type of fk shit...knn sua liao larh...

starting to dislike them...feel like ignoring n avoiding them for now....to relieve my anger..to relax n calm down...but im starting to hate them...wad shud i do???i cant tolerate no more...

c0mments! Yo readers miss me mah??

zz...rotting at home..camping in front of my computer...sibei shag..missing the times i had wif my clique...but now...nv even go out lorh...im gonna organise an outing for my clique..on 13june2009....gonna play like hell wif them juz hope they can go n haf enuff money....
Im so looking forward to 13june2009...Gonna watch movie...
Movie:Drag me to hell(Horror/PG)..first time able to watch horror movie wif clique...
Time:12pm to dunno wad time(AS LONG AS POSSIBLE)
People who i gonna jio:Alex,jundong,junyong,junjie,myself,jorean,elain,joanne,daphne,rachel..(HOPE ALL CAN GO..IF CAN I SIBEI SIBEI HAPPY)
hopefully everyone can go....nowadays.. camping at home ..tinking when during school looking forward to holiday...when during holiday looking forward to school...
Currently...missing everyone..in my clique...Gonna tink for a name for our clique..Better than my Mei's clique de name(c3)Wah..so lame lorh their name...zzz...dunno who so lame give so lame de nick..